I have the memory
I HAVE THE MEMORY
I have the memory of feeling the little flutter in my womb
When I was pregnant but not even big enough to show and thinking
Wow! This baby is going to be active and not knowing how true that
I have the memory in the delivery room when the nurses were cleaning him up
And he was crying and they brought him over to me and all I did was touch his cheek
And he immediately stopped crying because he knew it was me.
I have the memory of the look in his face when I would feed him and we
Would just stare at each other like we were the only two people in the world.
I have the memory of the toddler climbing in and out of the kitchen cabinets,
On the tops of counters, and in and out of the little holes of the entertainment center.
I have the memory of the little boy at 5 years old who jumped off the back porch thinking
He could fly like super man only to fall and hit the ground and see the disappointed and
Confused look on his face and he would try again determined he was going to fly.
I have the memory of taking him to school his first day with his cousin who was in the
Same class as him and as I walked away I had more fear leaving him there than he did
Staying because he was with her.
I have the memory of watching him hold both of his sisters at the hospital when they were
Born and being so proud that he was a big brother.
I have the memory of every time he saw a baby he would go out of his way to make the
Baby smile or laugh because there is nothing like the sound of a baby laughing.
I have the memory of watching him go down to the alter at church to give his heart to the
Lord and then going to the back of the church to tell his great grandfather and grandmother
What he had done because he knew his grandfather would be proud because he was a
I have the memory of watching him with every living creature he came in contact with
Weather it be a hamster, gerbil, cat, bird or dog he was always so gentle and kind.
I have the memory when he was 13 years old and he used to play with the rottweiller
That lived across the street but stayed at our house because he loved to be with Derek.
I have the memory of when I had to tell him that same dog had been run over by a car
And at age 13 he cried in my arms saying he had just lost his best friend.
I have the memory of being on the co-cart with him when I rode with him and he was
Driving for the first time and he scared me half to death because he was so excited about
Driving me that he was like a mad scientist with a new experiment.
I have the memory of the little girls he used to have crushes on and watching him blush every
Time they talked to him.
I have the memory of taking him to get his drivers license and he was so proud to have
I have the memory of the last summer we had with him and we were on the beach at
Gulf shores. He was in the water and I was on the beach watching him and thinking how
Much he had grown and was filling out and growing into the most handsome man
I had ever seen.
I have the memory of all the times he made me laugh.
And now I have not a memory but a knowing that my son is now in the arms of my
Wonderful Lord and Saviour and if I had to guess he and God are laughing together
And having a wonderful time.
I love you Derek.